Random stuff tonight. First, my thanks to all the advice on keeping my sneakers from squeaking. It's been awhile, yes, but I'm wearing them tonight at work and they're not squeaking. I powdered both the inside and the soles. Yay for no squeaks! MUD, was that your idea? If so, thank you. :)
Second, I have no idea what second is. I'm all out of whack. It's been what? A month and a half now that I've been at this job? The first two weeks were orientation. Forty hour weeks after not having worked a full time or real job in years. Substitute teaching doesn't count, as that was sporadic and occasional. Third week on this job was 50+ hours, all at night. Initiation of sorts, I guess. And the last four weeks I've done my 24 hours a week, on Saturday and Sunday nights.
I know I'm whining. I know that. Slap me now, will ya? I hate whiners. This week I subbed for a co-worker and put in an extra 8 hours Thursday night. I feel really wonky right now. May I 'splain, Lucy?
Here's the deal: I take a natural thyroid medication every morning. So far that has been a regular thing and I manage to still take it every morning, regardless of whether or not I work. I also use a natural compound progesterone cream (my progesterone levels were rock bottom) every morning. Same thing with it, that I still use it every morning. The kicker has been my Adderall XR, for my ADD. It's a beautiful thing, no? It keeps me awake all night at work. But that means I take it at night the nights I work. Throwing off that med schedule. So Saturday morning I take none till about five in the afternoon. Same on Sunday. Skip Monday (so I can sleep - it's an amphetamine), start over on Tuesday.
This has thrown my body for a little loop. Thursday threw me for a bigger loop. I took it Thursday evening, skipped Friday so I could sleep, didn't take the Adderall till Saturday evening. I can't take it too late in my day or I won't sleep. And it's been obvious that I've been off of it. I've been very tired and out of it. Driving me crazy.
The nurse I work with recommended I take it Monday morning anyway, stay up as much as possible, with naps, and go to sleep early on Monday nights. Sounds good. We'll see. I'm wondering if any of you have worked nights and had any experiences even remotely like this?
Thirdly, I'm frustrated about my weekends. Which no longer exist. I've always taken them for granted. Now my family does life without me all weekend while I either sleep or work. It's really weird and I'm wondering if they resent it or not. I might. I keep telling myself that we're all still adjusting to this. And I really do like my job.
My job - I like it very much. The girls are all sweet. I feel a little bit like a mom here, somewhat like an older aunt. I love filing papers and having a fixed schedule for what I do. Much better than the times I've done any kind of phone work or customer service. And the clientèle is much smaller. I mean that figuratively, y'all. All of this proving, again, that I'm an introvert, not an extrovert. The quiet nights are wonderful.
So that's where I am. Oh! Another frustration? (As long as I'm whining) I don't have nearly the same time to check out all of y'all's blogs like I did. I know, right? I'm busier here at work than I thought I'd be (which I like), and I sleep more at home than I'd like. That, and so many chores at home just don't get done like they once did, so my weeks are busier. I guess I didn't realize how much I got done, or at least supervised. It sure doesn't feel like much when I'm home. I'm not a natural housekeeper, as was evidenced by my dresser photo.
Speaking of the dresser photo, yes, that is a CPAP machine on my husband's nightstand. I posted about it a few months ago if you'd like to read his story. I'm so glad he has it! If you're interested, I also posted about my Little Guy's journey with ADHD and meds here. I think the post regarding my own journey and my weight is in the month of May, but the hospital's system won't let me go there because I discuss substance abuse. Hmph.
So I'll see y'all in the AM.
Until I write again ...