I have been a very bad girl. But! But. No, I've just been bad.
See, the doctor that I loved went crazy. She found my high thyroid antibodies and put me on armour thyroid, a natural prescription thyroid pill. Nearly three years ago. She also insisted, after I'd gotten off the ADHD meds, that I needed to be on something, so she kept trying till we got it right with the Adderall XR. She also checked my hormones and found my progesterone rock-bottom low. I've been on compounded progesterone cream for nearly three years.
Then, like I said, she went nuts. And left the clinic she was practicing at.
So last fall I wound up with a different doc at the same clinic. I liked her the first time I saw her. Then she stopped paying attention. Prescribed the wrong dose of something, then the wrong form (pill instead of cream). Didn't do the blood work I needed. Then, three months after she was my new doc, and a month after I resolved to say something or look for a new doc, she left the clinic, too.
About the time my old doc left, I stopped taking the thyroid meds. Ran out of it, and there was a big controversy about the type I was taking, and ... well, it was just a mess. I'd stopped the ADD meds a couple of months before.
Since last summer I've gained back all the weight I didn't work to lose in the first place. Yuck.
I finally saw a new doc (who I don't like much - going to a different one next month) and am now on Synthroid, the synthetic version. This new doc did explain that the high thyroid antibodies mean I have Hashimoto's, the most common of thyroid diseases. She explained that where I've been is similar to the difference between HIV and AIDS. The high antibodies point to my having the disease, but the normal levels of other thyroid blood work have indicated that the disease is still dormant, not yet effecting me adversely.
So I'm tired. Feeling icky. Feeling hormonal. Not sure what to do. Hoping to straighten everything out with the new-new-new doc soon. Fourth one in six months, but this time by choice.
Here's my concern, based on what I've cobbled together over time: the thyroid med is a stimulant, so I'm very hesitant to take another stimulant in the form of an ADD med. I went back to Strattera, but it wasn't working so well for me, and it's the only non-stimulant I know. A consistent resting heart rate over a hundred just doesn't set well with me. Also, the thyroid med is a basically a hormone, from what little I've read. I'm currently on the progesterone cream, which keeps me from going insane. I'm not sure exactly what that means.
If anyone out there has experienced information, I'd love to hear it. Please. Because so far I've gotten mixed messages, and I've taken myself off of drugs out of frustration, which can't be good. Gah. I appreciate you all. Really I do.
Until I write again ...